Day #7

Since the initial shock of Jee being gone has worn off, and Emilie is in camp, I have found a "new normal" as a single mom.  Granted, the kids still don't sleep well (or eat well) and we're recovering from a virus...  but things could be worse, I know, and I am thankful that I am surrounded by loving family and friends who have encouraged and prayed for me and kept my spirit afloat.

Before Jee left, God clearly spoke to me about a few things.  To paraphrase, He said, "Don't focus on what you don't have (i.e., Jee) but what you do have (the kids, family, friends, church) and focus on what you can do and what needs to be done every day.  Remember, I am your HELPER (referencing Hebrews 13:6) and you are NOT alone."  When He said this, I KNEW he meant, I am physically NEXT to you as a BEING helping you, even though you can't see me.  Not: I'm going to help you help yourself.  There is a difference.  Does this make sense?

Well fast forward to yesterday morning.  I was running late, exhausted, tired, and I could not find Eliz's glasses ANYWHERE.  I was so frustrated.  They had vanished.  We couldn't leave until I had them on her face and precious minutes were being wasted.  So in desperation I prayed, Lord help me find these *&#$%$^ glasses!!!  Not very spiritual I know.  To my surprise, an immediate word flashed across my mind: BASEMENT.  Huh?!  So I went downstairs and lo and behold, there they were sitting on top of a bookshelf.  I had completely forgotten we were in the basement the night before playing and watching TV.  I would have NEVER thought to look down there.  But God knew where they were, and He was my Helper in a time of need.  Such a small example, but so so timely and so perfect!!  Thanks, God.  You are amazing.  :)

And I might add, as a thought: contrary to popular belief, God does not help those who help themselves.  God helps those who ASK for help.  :)  So ask today!  He is always listening.